It's mind blowing stuff... Quite literally...

Wednesday, 25 January 2006

Self realization: awakening to the realization that if I speak the clear truth to my mind then I can fall in love with it, rather than be the slave to it. When I am a slave to my mind it is an endless belief in the identification that I am that, the voice recording of past conditioning, the story that is playing at each moment. So if I'm not my mind or personality or emotions or conditioning or all that I have been told and believed, then the only question left to ask is..... Who am I? When asking that question, see what happens to the mind... Sit for a while, eyes closed and ask..... Who am I? And in that moment of truth, the seeking stops, the search is over..... I am that which is awareness....... before I took this form, during the form and after... I was always that unwavering, abundant, universal, omnipresent, interconnected, spacious, silent No-thingness.... The stories, voices recordings, conditioning, identifications began when I first believed as a small child that "I" was separate from everything, that "I" was alone in this world that I, I, I but deep down we do know, we have just forgotten, have got caught up in the drama that plays endlessly on our screens and we believe that we are that! It isn't something that we can interlectualize, how can we, that would be the mind again coming up to grab that moment and identify with it... It is only what we can feel in that moment after asking.... Who am I? Then we feel, we know the truth.... That awareness... That which never changes and of course has always been there.... That is our home...... unwavering, abundant, universal, omnipresent, interconnected, spacious, silent No-thingness.... In each "NOW" moment there is a choice, to be truthful and awake or to stay in the story, my story, my reality of that moment. Whatever happens with the drama or story that is playing on my screen at that moment underneath, above, in and out, in fact everywhere is choiceless awareness that we can merge with again once more. It is not to say that the story won't play, that is the existence of our human conditioning but we have a choice to believe the drama, the ghost house of our past and the fantasy of our future and so the stories continue and we can believe that is ALL we are, but we do know deep down that isn't the truth, that there is more that this to life than the stories and so the search begins.... If I can realize THAT moment to moment then I can stay awake and aware in my human life. The story, the thoughts, the emotions, the drama are likes clouds passing across the sky and awareness is the sky, awareness is our home before, during and after we took this form. Question again.... Who am I? Close your eyes, wait what do you feel, not think, what do you feel...... See what happens... What is there? Who am I????? then there is the answer I love you...